A song to share

I have an amazing story to tell y'all soon, but in the meantime I wanted to share this song that was the special music at my church two Sundays ago.  I couldn't stop crying when I heard it...started sniffling loud and everything lol.  I still can't hear it without tearing up!  It is called "unredeemed" by Selah, and you can listen to it here (but you will want to minimize the window to not look at the very bad choice of pictures someone chose to put with it).

RE appt

I really feel the same way Lisa did about her RE appt yesterday (send her hugs and prayers).  It was just kinda blah.  24 hours later and I'm still not sure what to really say about it.  I told Shaun that I felt so infertile when I left.  He kinda laughed at me and said that is probably how most women feel when they leave that clinic.  True but still...it is no fun feeling infertile.  I guess the one highlight of the appointment is that Dr.H did agree that my estrogen bloodwork was "really low" so Dr.Google was right again!!  This is why you ALWAYS get your bloodwork levels from your nurse ladies.  Never accept it when they call you and say "your bloodwork came back normal."  This is what you say..."oh good!!  do you mind giving me the levels so I can write them down for my records??"  Then run to google.  If you haven't done this in the past, go get a copy of all of your medical records.  Dr. H did say that the bfeeding (even though we are down to not very many feedings per day) could still be causing an elevated prolactin and that could be causing the estrogen to be lower.  While this might be the case, I'm pretty confident my estrogen has always been on the low side because of my thin lining etc.  The second highlight would be that I was able to introduce him to the "Making Babies" book.  He didn't seem very interested, but I encouraged him to give it a try and asked him if he was interested in eastern medicine, which he said he was so maybe he will read it (doubt it).  So what is the plan??  Dr. H doesn't see the point in trying anything else except what we know worked the first time which is injectables with iui.  This kinda cracks me up because I had to literally beg him to let us do injectables (henry cycle) and now he is all about it and I was the one who brought up the higher risk of multiples this time when he said it over and over last time.  Shaun said that this means that I'm at a level 8 infertile to Dr. H and that is why he is skipping over the lower dose meds this time.  Thanks hubby :) at least you don't think I'm a 10.  Dr. H did give the option to do a mini-inj cycle where I take femara 3-7 and then a lower dose of injections to plump up my lining.  We might consider this, but I'm pretty sure we will do an inj cycle instead.  And this last bit of info is for my local friends but there is a new nurse practitioner that I'm not really sure what I think about her.  I had to spill my guts to her first and go over all of what we have been through and then she replied, "oh well I think Dr. H can fix you right up!!"  Really?  this isn't a sinus infection.  There are no guarantees with infertility.  I'm guessing she hasn't been around for very long.  I'm sure once she makes enough "not pregnant" phone calls that she will start to get it.  So what is the plan from here?  Save money!!  We don't have the money to do an injectable cycle right now plus we are down to one car and trying to save for a second vehicle.  We will continue to try on our own for now while I continue to make lifestyle/diet changes for optimum fertility (making babies book). 

Please continue your prayers for K and Adriane and let them know you are thinking of them.