My False Positive

This was last cycle. Do you see two lines? I know it is faint, but it was way darker in person just take my word for it. In a perfect world, this would mean I was pregnant. I had all of the signs... a great 21 day prog number, really sore bbs, very emotional so when I saw two lines I thought our prayers had been answered. I dove back into the bed to tell Shaun the good news. We immediately prayed and thanked God for this wonderful blessing. And we spent the rest of the day, calling and telling all of our close friends and family the good news. I walked around with my hand on my belly all afternoon, and I was beyond happy. The next morning, I got to test again hoping for a darker line only to see a positive on the $ tree tests and a BFN on first response. Now all ttc girls know that FRER is the best and most reliable at detecting early so this should have been a big flashing "you are not pregnant" sign, but I still didn't believe it. I called my ob-gyn's nurse who has to be one of the rudest nurses in america to see if I could get b/w done right away. When I got to the lab, I explained to the poor lab lady what happened to me, and I asked her if the order said to do a yes or no beta or a number beta. She said just a yes or no, and I asked her to please see if we could do a number because there can be false negatives with a yes or no depending on the lab with it being so early. She agreed and in no time at all I had the rude nurse yelling at me that they were only going to do a yes or no and that's it. She walked away, and I immediately started crying... that was the last straw for me with that nurse. I waited in the waiting room with all of the glowing pregnant girls as I tried to stop crying. I flipped open a magazine and turned the pages, but I didn't read one single thing...all I could think about is yes or no. Probably about 30 minutes later, the lab ladies called me in there to tell me I was not pregnant. I lost it...I could hardly stand up. Honestly my immediate reaction was "why God, why would you let me get a false positive??" I made the lab ladies cry, and they wouldn't let me leave until I got okay. My first phone call was to a woman named Joy at the RE's office to ask if I could get the appointment back that I canceled just hours before when I just knew for sure that I was pregnant. She was so kind to me, and she made sure that I got my appointment back. I spent the rest of the day just crying. Apparently the lab ladies told my doctor what was going on because the rude nurse called back in the evening to say that "we decided to run the numbers...and it was .07 so you definitely are not pregnant." She was extremely nice so either she felt bad for how rude she was (find that unlikely) or someone got on to her. I didn't have much to say to her, but I let her know that I had an appointment with Dr. H and that I wouldn't be back. I honestly loved my doctor that is why I was so torn leaving her for a specialist, but I knew I needed to go to an RE to be watched more carefully. God wanted me there, and rude nurse just made it that much easier to leave. thank you rude nurse.