You don't know me, but I couldn't help but overhear your phone conversation today with your mom. I really didn't mean to eavesdrop, but you said estrogen really loud and words like that get my attention. A progesterone level of 14 isn't the best, but it isn't nearly as bad as your gyn nurse made you think. I don't know why they wanted it to be at least 18...pretty sure 16 was the "great" ovulatory number just last year. I would be surprised if your dr already wants to up your dosage just based on that progesterone number. I really wanted to say something to you, but you made absolutely no eye contact with me, and I don't blame you. I was just another young "fertile" mom to you with a sweet baby asleep in my cart, and you were in too much pain to look. I even heard you complain to your mom about how walmart has now changed their layout so that you have to walk right through the baby section to get anywhere. I remember all too well avoiding "that" corner of walmart, and I really do understand why walking by something as simple as formula and baby food causes a lump in your throat on a bad day. It was like baby was everywhere in the store (including this really adorable baby girl with a sheep coat on), and I felt terrible that I was part of causing you pain. I really hope your miracle is coming soon and that one day you will be able to do something as simple as grocery shopping without feeling the pain. I've been there, and I know how infertility follows you throughout your day.
Love,
A Fellow Infertile Wal-Mart Shopper
Lord, we are coming together now asking for you to wrap your comforting arms around those who are hurting too deeply to speak or to seek out support. You know their names. You know the plans you have for them, and we rest in knowing that in Your time...You will provide. Give them peace that surpasses all understanding and give them the strength to reach out to others if that is what they need right now. We also pray protection over their heart when hurtful words or medical facts come their way. We love you, and we thank you that we can come to you with all of our burdens...big and small. Amen.
3 comments:
I love that prayer :) Thanks for that!
Thank you for posting this. As I struggle with possible infertility, your blog gives me hope and a faith in His plan for my future
What a kind and thoughtful post.
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